Today is the day...

That's what I told myself this morning. Today is the day I'm going to stay away from cigarettes. It's funny how much motivation you can have when you wake up in the morning and how it totally fades away as the day goes by. Well, that didn't happen today!! I did not smoke a single cigarette woohoo!!!!
But it wasn't without its difficulties... At 8:30am, all smiles and looking forward to a smoke-free day --that meant no smoke break at work and somehow I was just in a great mood, huh?-- I'm enjoying listening to music and reading in the bus, when this guy sat next to me. And guess what?? Yeah, he smelled like cigarettes... Yikes. I never liked the smell of cigarette in the morning, not even on myself so that just sucked. But anyway, I realized it didn't even make me want to light one when I get off the bus, like I usually do when I work in the morning. So at this point, it's Cigarettes: 0; Sab:1
Work went pretty smoothly in terms of cravings except after the rush, which is when I would typically sneak out for a smoke. I was expressing my cravings out loud to my coworker J who knew I was trying to quit smoking. At this point I knew I was going to have one today, just didn't know when exactly. I thought of how hard it would be not to smoke one after work... That's when J said: "I have something for you," and he takes out this tiny little plastic square out of his his wallet, unwraps it and hands it to me. Surely, he had just given me a nicotine patch, "a quarter of one" actually. For some reason the "quarter of" made me feel better about putting it on, as if it couldn't be that bad because it's not the whole thing. The craving went away instantly. Booya! I kept the patch until a couple of hours ago and I feel fine ;) Cigarettes:0; Sab:2
Oh by the way, did I say that I had left my pack of cigarette that has one cigarette left in it at home, on purpose, and without even thinking twice? Yeaaaah. Cigarettes:0 ; Sab:3
Overall, I'm impressed at how much I don't even want to smoke. I'm not saying I don't want to smoke at all, just a lot less than I used to. It's true what they say about the importance of wanting to quit. It's really half the job. Maybe even more. And I'm just taking it one day at a time, because the prospect of today being my first day as a non smoker kinda weirds me out... But at the same time, I hope it's what it turns out to be.
Ok, I know I have a few more hours hanging out at the house before bedtime but I'm not about to screw it all up for a pathetic cigarette so I'm confident we can call today a cigarette-free day! And although I was against it in the first place --I'm just scared of heart attacks for some reason-- I went to Walgreens after work and got my fix of chemical nicotine gum, mint flavor, that I have not tested yet... Tomorrow maybe?

Days until my birthday: 52
Days without cigarettes: 1
Weight: It's gotta be the same as yesterday...